Yeap, finally I have mustered enough courage to start the process of migration to Australia. Am tired of myself grumbling about the life in Singapore. I guess the whole migration thing is made easier with the blessing from my parents.

As I said before, I am not running away from my parents or my responsibilities towards my parents, I am preparing for what i want in the future. My parents will probably never get to outlive me, so I better make plans for myself. I dont want to be at 50-60s, single and parentless and having too much regrets.

1) Book and sit for IELTS academic test. I better pass it well! (Check)
2) Request for re-print of my certs. (Doing inquiries on the process)
3) Send my certs for skills assessment in Australia
4) Get all documentations prepared.
5) Send in PR application
6) Pray for a positive PR approval letter to come!

 

Yes, it has been a long long while since i updated my blog. Didn't see the need for it as no one is reading it anymore. Not that i mind but it does get a little lonesome being the only one reading my own blog.

I guess I was busy moving on and trying to carry on with my life. I am back playing RO again. This time I moved to a server that has my real life friends instead of strangers I met online.

I probably won't be writing much from now on anyway. I seem to write a blog in my head and then later, i will forget what i want to write about.

Am still thinking of ending this blog but the blog has bought back some memories; I am still hesitating about the decision. Let’s just sit on it for a while, shall we?

Oh yeah, I am going to apply and sit for the IELTS test. It is for the sole purpose of immigration purpose. I have to pay $300 for the test.... Bloody expensive! And scary too! I have to re learn my academic writing again. *sigh*

While on the train, a couple children rushed into the train with their grandmother just before the train door shuts. The children were smiling and panting while complaining to the grandmother that they almost fell down. As I looked at the grandmother smiling at her grandchildren, a sense of envy and sadness engulfs me.

Suddenly I remember my both sets of grandparent. Sadly they have all passed away many years old. How wonderful it was when i was young that I had grandparents to dote and spoilt me. *sigh* I miss my ecentric grandpa who would wear two watches. When we asked him why, he said that was just in case one watch stops and the other will still be working. My grandma who became mentally ill after her daughter left her and ended up senile. She finally took her last breath when my mother and father took her back to her hometown in Hainan, China.

My mother's side's grandparents. My Grandfather passed away when i was just a toddler. I have no recollection of him at all. He was said to be a simple man who has few words. My grandmother, she died while i was studying in Perth. My cousin and I couldn't return to Singapore to sent her off. We were so upset by it all. To this day, I still feel the pangs of guilt when i had directly hurt her feelings. I was a kid then and I didn't like her much then.

I miss all of you! I wonder how all of you are doing now in heaven. Forgive me for all the lies and hurtful things that i have done and said to you. I just hope you know that I love you all very much, in my selfish ways.

While waiting to cross the road today, I overhead this father talking to his young son. I think he should be around 3-5 years old. The son was hanging on to one of his father's hand and standing near the edge of the road. The son lean out to the road.

Father: Adam, dont put your head out. A car will come and knock your head off and you will die. hahahaha!

I was thinking, the son must thought it was a joke coz the dad's tone was not serious neither did he hurried pulled the son back. This is what i call bad parenting. If you want to warn your child of the dangers of the road. Such matters should not to announced in such a joking manner especially to a young child. They need to understand the real warning and seriousness of the matter.

Maybe I am just judging the matter based on one incident but i feel that i wont take my dad seriously if he was trying to tell me the danger in such a joking matter (if i am the kid). I would probably do it again if it is really fun.

I am in no mood to blog right now. Still nursing a heart that is still reeling from the shredding effect from a heart ache and betrayal. Someone also ram a knife into my heart and twisted it in there.
I am not sure if i will recover from the injuries and be normal again. Something in my heart had died. I feel like dying too. But i am not suicidal. Just insanely angry and insane sad. *sigh**sigh*

Because of Taiwan, I had a fight with my brother. He was been rude to me and it was my last straw. First i was really mad and then i was really upset. In front of my parents, i scream at him and storm out of the lift. I have since stopped talking to my brother. My mom understands why i am so angry and upset but she tells me blood is thicker than water. I have to agree on that. I promised i will talk to him again but i am still  upset. So it will take a while before i am willing to talk to him.

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Of late, I have been feeling really tired...when i am sitting in front of the computer and doing nothing much. So I am logging off the computer earlier and earlier. But when I try to go to sleep, i had much difficulties in going to dreamland. Something is wrong with me, I am still trying to figure out. Maybe i am getting old and is in need of lesser sleep?

Hehe, my whole family are going to Taiwan to visit my brother and his wife as well take a nice holiday. Cant wait for it to happen...but i have to wait till November. Anyway we need an itinerary so we can make full use of our time there.

But there is where the problems starts. My parents are saying,"Where you want to go? We go where you want to go." But my mom been telling my brother where she wants to go but when i ask her she said anything... *sigh* My brother and his girlfriend said, "Anywhere, just anything fun or nice." So easy to use mouth to say...who is going to plan the itinerary? Me? But i haven't been to taiwan before... so i turn to my brother and his wife.

Again a lot of lip service...so i made up a list and gave to them...a very draft one... and they go..."but this place is too far. I recommend this place.." Problem is...my Chinese is okay but not that fantastic...so i get lost after a while, whatever they said turned into garbbish after a while. I need to brush up my Chinese. *sigh*

I know i want to go the hot springs! I missed out on it while in Korea many years ago...because their rules are no clothes while in the hot spring...NO WAY!!!

Funny and painful thing happened today. I was getting ready for work this morning. I wanted to sort my backpack so that i dont have to carry the gym stuff since i am not going gym today. So i reached down to the floor and grab my bag without thought. *Ouch!* Something like a pin was stinging my hand. As i release my grip on the backpack, i realize underneath my hand (and still sitting happily on my backpack) was a big fly of some sort. Initially i though it was a big housefly but i was thinking houseflies doesn't sting me! Oh dear, i then realize i had been sting by some insect (I was a bit slow!) I gingerly put the backpack back on the floor.... the insect thingy moved a bit but remain on the bag....I think it was still sleeping when he was rudely grabbed by me. Anyway it had to die.... I cant have flying stinging insect in my bedroom!!! Begone! Love the insecticide!

It's caress is still sitting on my table. I wanted to take a picture with my digital camera but the battery was dead. And the picture from the handphone camera didnt turn out too well (too blurry). Anyway the wasp is about as long as a 10 cent coin.

Good thing i didnt have any allergic reaction to the sting and the swelling is miminal. The burning sensation was gone after 10mins. hehehe!

Well, I havent had the opportunities to cook these days. Yeah, the kitchen usage has to be approved by my dear mummy. She doesnt approve of weird food and messing up her kitchen. hehehe yeah anything not chinese is foreign enough to be classified as weird.
But i have been demolising alot of junkie food of late. Marshmallows, Pocky, tibits and every single evil fat inducing things you can think of!
And there were alot of teacher's day feasting in the school as well as the recent children's day celebration.
Luckiily i am still going to the gym at least once a week, so that keeps things still slightly in control!